Crap shit

by Girls Rituals

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1.
02:49
I'm so awful Well behaved I don't need a soul I don't need a name Sedate me with hypnotic sleep I'll sleep forever I'll be good I'll be good I'll be a good girl I won't ever do anything ever Stiff as a board and I'm light as a feather All this pressure, can it hold us together? I always get what I want So I always try not to want too much I'm the stupidest slut when you sneer in disgust I just wanted a hug Make it hurt way too much If it's ok for you It's ok for me Don't worry too much It's too late for me I just wanted to know if someone else understood I just wanted a little but it felt way too good I crawl with my head down Please just hear my prayer Immobilized with venom My ass up in the air Yea Sup What's up ha Um What's up Blinding pain Serrated blade I don't wanna stop No really I'm ok Sedate me with the smell of blood I think it's funny Feeling my heartbeat Blood tight in my chest I've already seen all the bad shit So please just do your best I'm feeling transcendent I think I'm depressed Let's just use a condom I already fucked all your friends If it's ok for you It's ok for me Don't worry too much It's too late for me I just wanted to know if someone else understood I just wanted a little but it felt way too good But it felt way too good But it felt way too good But it felt way too good But it felt way too good But it felt way too good But it felt way too good But it felt way too good
2.
I just wanna make the world smile I just wanna make the world dance God knows where I am God knows where I am You can touch my angel wing Yank a feather from my back You can have all the love in the world Even if the world's Damned I just wanna make the whole earth smile I just wanna make the whole earth smile I tried so hard I did a lot Do you believe me? I just wanna make the whole earth smile I just wanna make the world smile Do you think I'm bad Do you think I'm wrong Or I'm too slutty? I think sometimes it hurts to feel empty I think I'd do something weird to get the feeling inside I thought I'd just die if someone touched me I think Sometimes I'd just prefer to die Clawed hands Gripping Tear away at your skin There's something else underneath It hurts It feels so good Like a glowing new shape You look like nothing that you ever seen before I just wanna be different I just wanted to choose Grinded up and repurposed A deflated balloon Never fit in the old me Always hated the new Always thought I was useless but I'm perfect for you.
3.
01:43
F,,, Hahahaha Foll.. Follow your dreams I can I can do whatever it seems Follow your dreams I can I can do whatever it seems, it's Some dream I had Some place I know Something I saw Something that wasn't what I thought it was I always get fooled by CGI Tell me another lie I'll believe fucking anything You can be living You can be dead According to TV you can be what you want I tried to be something but I just got killed I tried to be something but I went to jail People always listen to my shit wanna talk about They gotta ask "what the fuck is this shit about?" Some dream I had Some place I know Something I saw Something that wasn't what I thought it was I always get fooled by CGI Tell me another lie I'll believe fucking anything You can be living You can be dead According to TV you can be what you want I tried to be something but I just got killed I tried to be something but I went to jail You can be living You can be dea-
4.
03:04
An invisible light is shining right thru you An invisible light An invisible light An invisible light is shining right thru you The last glow of our civilization that harvested the powers The powers of The Universe Go back up to the surface And take better care of the world than we did once Good luck Good luck Good fucking luck One egg with two yolks BBQ beans over plastic smoke Got em with that 360noscope There's no way out There's no hope The only way thru is down Ketchup on white bread A little salt cos I like it I wanna fall in love but I got no soul Just a torture clone born in a UFO Did you a see a landscape of thorns? Did you a see a landscape of thorns? Did it make you full of fear? Did it make you curious? I've been to three mile island and silent hill I fixed my ugly gross third eye with a 12V power drill I've been to LA and NYC but there was nothing there but cops And everybody died while everybody watched
5.
02:53
Time goes by I'm confused I've been fucked with and abused Zoning out What the fuck I don't care Everybody sucks, sorry. Whole world's got a melty future Whole world's insane Whole world is useless Everybody is changing And I'm outta my head And I'm outta my head And I'm outta the world And I'm outta My head My mind Nowhere No world time Whole world's got a melty future Whole world's insane No one is useless Everybody is changing And I'm outta my head And I'm outta my head And I'm outta the world And I'm outta my...
6.
Like heat melting sand into glass I thought I'd finally understand Understand? Like heat melting sand into glass I thought I'd finally understand Let's go Not wait much longer My body's not getting any stronger Everything floats like water Down the drain And into the sewer I wanted to understand Everything floats like water Down the drain And into the sewer Into the sewer Into the sewer Into the sewer Into the sewer I hoped one day I could see thru the reason why it happened
7.
Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything I know is right, know is right Everything I know is right, feel the life Everything I know is right, know is right Everything I feel alive, feel alive This time is special This time is different This time is special This time I feel it Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything is wrong, everything is wrong Everything is wrong, everything is wrong I know what the world wants Twisted, broken and fucked up but eh... They really wanna kill us all!!! This time is special DIFFERENT THIS TIME, THIS TIME IS FUCKING DIFFERENT This time is different aaWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoOOOOoOOoOOoOOoOoOOoooOoOoooooooOOOO This time is special Aauhughghuhhggh This time I feel it This time I feel it This time I feel it
8.
Popping bottles in the ice, like a blizzard When we sink we do it right, we're getting scissored Sipping sizzurp in my ride, like three six Now I'm feeling so fly like a G6 Like a G6 Like a G6 Now I'm feeling so high like a G6 Like a G6 Like a G6 Now I'm feeling so fly like a G6 I Gotta Hide away In a Tiny space In a tiny space Tiny space Leave me alone Please just leave alone Please just leave alone Please just leave alone Please just leave alone Please just leave alone I don't really give a fuck what the fuck you're saying I don't know you bitch I don't know you bitch I don't owe you bitch I don't owe you dude I don't owe you dude I don't make music for your fucking man ears Fucking but I don't I don't even Is there a carrot in there or something That makes the fucking sound all fucked up And that's why dudes don't Even have good taste in music Literally fucking ever Not that music taste matters But like literally whenever a dude tries to tell me about a band I'm like pff shut the fuck up Literally I could not care I really just Lemme guess Lemme guess It's a fucking dude Singing some fucking random shit Over a beat Some shit with some echo effects on it maybe Like you can't even hear the words Cos the words fucking suck Cos the words ain't shit Cos he didn't think about the words for two seconds Cos it's just not some shit that has any type of personality Or like any type of heart that went into it Like no care It's just some guy He's just bored He's just thinking about how some girl's gonna suck his dick If he plays the guitar Haha Popping bottles in the ice, like a blizzard When we sink we do it right, we're getting scissored Sipping sizzurp in my ride, like three six Now I'm feeling so fly like a G6 Like a G6 Like a G6 Now I'm feeling so high like a G6 Like a G6 Like a G6 Now I'm feeling so fly like a G6 I Want To hide away In a In a tiny place In a tiny place In a time and place Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me alone Leave me a
9.
Everybody's fucking with me They think I'm stupid Don't think I'd do shit Don't think I'd do shit? You don't know me You don't know me You might be underestimating what is happening If it's really about it You could call someone If it's really about teaching Then go talk it out Let's work it out Work it out Work it out We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know I don't even wanna know I would'a never thought it would'a go this far A lot of things you'd never think it'd go this far I never would'a thought shit would go this far I don't really know I don't really know where it's going I would'a never thought it would'a go this far A lot of things you never think it'd go this far I never would'a thought shit would go this far I don't really never thought I would'a never I don't wanna fall into the sky I don't really wanna be anything like those guys I think they're boring I think they're not shit Yeah I fucking said it Everybody's fucking with me Everybody's fucking with me Ah Everybody's fucking with me They think I'm stupid They think I'm stupid Everybody's fucking with me Uh Everybody's fucking with me Everybody's fucking with me They think I'm stupid They think I'm stupid They think I'm stupid They know I'm stupid You know I'm stupid but We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know We don't wanna know, we don't wanna know You don't know You don't wanna We don't know We don't know, we don't wanna know, we don't know We don't know, we don't wanna know, we don't wanna We don't know, we don't know, We don't know what we don't know It's ok tho Everybody's shit is same in the same flow It's ok we can put it out the window Now maybe it will be a little different When you look right thru it I would'a never thought it would'a go this far A lot of things you'd never think it'd go this far I never would'a thought shit would go this far I don't really know I don't really know where it's going I never woulda thought Work it Work it Work it Work it I don't wanna fall into the sky I don't really wanna be anything like those guys I think they're boring I think they ain't shit Yeah I fucking said it Haha Rock n roll I said rock I said fucking rock n roll bitch Press the fucking rock n roll button
10.
02:09
As the clock strikes midnight, nothing happens As the clock strikes 3 AM, nothing happens The night goes on And on Until morning Until mourning Living in a body is such a strange puzzle It's like walking in a maze while walking in a maze, well Which way's the cute way? Which way is cuter It's hard to tell when both brick hallways are gory And reeking of shit We can go inside Knowing in advance That it's wrong to hide That it's wrong to dance to a beat like this I hope they see me fall I hope they see me fail I hope they watch me starving to death and burning in hell 10,000 demons all wanna be me If I die in the dark then no one can see me 10,000 demons all wanna drink my blood Blair Witch this shit I'm keeping the camera on Let's have some fun Haha Love you guys.
11.
04:10
I once hoped that I could be strong I once hoped we could all get along I was wrong, wrong, wrong I'll always be wrong, wrong, wrong She's a weakling Caught between things Always sleeping Nightmare dreaming She's a weakling Pain increasing Soul depleting Constant grieving I just wanted I just wanted to let you know I just wanted to let you know that I know that I let you down But I once hoped that I could be big I once dreamed like stupid little kid It was so fun for a while All the times that I didn't die Someone else took care of me I was lucky I was lucky I was lucky

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Ketchup (Music Video)
youtu.be/qIlUgWeUSGE

Curse (Music Video)
youtu.be/F9zmFj-t2y4

Hellraiser 2 (Music Vide)
youtu.be/vFiWmcxYwb0

5 years ago I wrote a desperate, pleading album trying to prove myself as "a real artist". Wishing to have a real home, wishing for safety and healing between suffering peoples, about understanding kind love between women.

That album was called "Reddishness" and you can find it here
blacksquares.bandcamp.com/album/reddishness

Now on my 29th birthday I am bringing to you the sequel to "Reddishness". A mutated, DNA-liquefying sequel. An album trying to prove that I'm not a real artist, abandoning a sense routine, terrified psychotic paranoid misunderstanding and manic repulsive lust. lol.

I'm not trying to be cynical but I always have written these songs from where my experience and feelings come from. My feelings in the world has changed in many complicated and unexpected ways. But it's not all bad... Not all ALL bad...In many ways, I got lucky.

I don't know. These songs existed and I had to purge them. It makes sense to purge them all together here as "Crap shit"

Enjoy,

Devi McCallion
May 16 2020

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released May 16, 2020

Album art by Katie Dey
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Mastered by Ada Rook
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Songs written between 2017-2020

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Devi McCallion
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