Reddishness

by Girls Rituals

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about

I had a lot of fun being Mom, but I'm always trying to do what feels right for me. It's still just me though.

This music is about the types of feelings that make the heart beat faster. That kind of thing has been happening to me a lot lately! But ya they're all songs about blood moving around quickly. That's why it's called reddishness.

Your support is so important to me! It allows me to take care of myself, live in a space thats healthy for me & continue to make music. Plus the cassettes are so cute and beautiful and a super rare collectors item!

Thank you.
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Watch the video thats taking the fashion world by storm, "Treat Me Like a Doll"
www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Ahsqwq-Kq8

And see the award winning "Shitty Peach" music video here!!!
www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfSWly4oD0I

Tapes graciously duplicated, printed & distributed by Psychic Wiirld aka Bulldog Eyes aka Chore Girl.
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credits

released August 18, 2015

Sequenced and recorded on an Acer Aspire 57352 laptop and a Roland MC-505.

So many special thanks to Nicky, AJ, Tyler, Sera, Mavica, Georgie, Jo, Karen, Chris, Ashley, Steven, Scott and of course Ivy!!

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Track Name: I Know
i feel its gross hot breath breathing in my face
after all this time.. no fuck that..
i wanna go to disneyland
i dont wanna do more any shit that i hate
i wanna have some real fun
i wanna see the fireworks
i wanna prove what a stupid bitch i am
i wanna get way too drunk in the california sun
like i always dreamed of
i wanna see thru to my true self
i wanna play puzzle games on a iphone on a air plane.

its true i know just how you feel

i feel it too

i'll be the thing you're thinking of
up thru the sky and up above
reach down to me and pull me up
just one more time i swear ill make it worth your time this time

so freaked out i wanna fucking scream
please put on some tlc
please please
stay close to me

i dont wanna be a concept that you put evil thoughts into
i dont want that
im a person
i work real hard everyday
Track Name: Pink Slime
please dont take it as a sign
freezing boiling hot
panic flashing red and white lights
grind it into pink slime
who cares i wont die i wont die i wont die
i can do it
yea its under my control
cut me open
im gonna crawl back out that hole
who the fuck is stopping me
yea i watched the secret
but i dont need it painless
i was born a human scar

im so fucking hungry that it makes me wanna barf
you can treat me like im nothing but every fucking day im working hard
uuhh you think im not here for this
its what ive worked towards for all these years

is it such a bad idea if i hold on to my hope
is it really fucking greedy to dream about being in her home
ive been cut out of real life for so long that ive realized that i dont even wanna talk about it anymore

you can force me out
you can push me down
you can drown me out
but ill come back around
Track Name: HRT
i’ll do my best to be softer
i’ll be tap water
slipping through unknown claws
i’ll get strong
and i’ll get better
or at the very least
the days will keep moving on
but in all the awful days ahead
if our wounds won’t heal over
if we can make the world our bed
we can crawl beneath the covers
we can hold ourselves instead
while its peeking thru the mirrors
while it gets nearer overhead
we’ll hold ourselves together

im gonna paint my nails grey
im gonna paint my nails grey
the only thing i did was sleep out on the couch today
im gonna paint my nails grey
Track Name: Shitty Peach
hi hello its nice to see you. oh, you’ve always felt the same? i know. “its on fire”. i really want to get… “enough”. have you even noticed that I’m trying to find you out? theres lots of other stuff that i could do to let you know!
all i knows your name. it feels like I’m reaching thru a haze. ill put it in yr hands for you to take. i’ll grip you even tighter every day. i’m being…

i’m being serious
so please take me seriously
i’ll be yr sun shine
i can be whatever you need
don’t underestimate what i can do
i want to spend all my time on you
i can be yr springtime
yr girlfriend i can be yr peach

ummm i can barely last any longer yr gravity’s stronger
when my bones all start snapping i hope that you like me back
Track Name: Goddess
ill do what i want
i can’t stay cool
i can’t be robbed of my hotness
cos even when I’m feeling like a goddess
life isn’t perfect its a work in progress
but i gotta stay on it
i need to work harder if i have to be honest
and that sucks cos i work til it hurts every day and thats why i gotta put my foot on it

tell the world what it means
gotta put it in my teeth
i wanna tell the world what it means to me
it’ll be ok
just another day
counting down the hours
every night matters
gotta put it in my teeth now i know what i need
i wanna show the world whats important to me
claw up its sides
get a free ride from me
put your eyes on me
put your eyes on me

put your eyes on me
Track Name: Treat Me Like A Doll
if you really want
i’ll become the smog around you
i’ll surround you with my love
no matter how much
how could it ever be enough

i want to take care of all your needs
i wanna give you
everything
i wanna build a nest inside yr lungs
and curl up and go to sleep as close as i can be to you

keep me
keep me safe
i need you
more than anything

treat me like a doll
ill be super perfect
see the real me
buried in the plastic

every fucking day
i wake up in a panic
spinning like a drill
i can never stop
tearing up
inside myself

i built myself
from barely fitting parts
scraped up off the floor

bubbling
melting in the heat
melting u and me together

whats this stuff
is it even flesh
is it even blood
is it even me

i built myself
from barely fitting parts
i still fall apart
Track Name: Shield
when you grow to be someones sister
if you can overcome the barriers
you might find yourselves to be sharing an incredible power
if you can light up each other
thats the necessary secret
if you really do need it
you can have your own hidden world together

but lets go back to the beach
lets live in a dream
you can pretend to be you
i can pretend to be me
but we don’t need to act like we’re ourselves
we don’t need to be anything
i’ve been thinking wrong forever
i don’t have to be anything

when my mind is overwhelmed
when my body won’t move
you’ve been a shield over me
i want to be a shield over you
when my mind shuts down
in the most unbelievable pain
you’ve been a shield over me
i just want the strength to do the same

but my bodys not me
it won’t hold my shape
you can’t even see my armour
but its shimmering like water
and its heavy like the ocean
and yeah it holds me down but
i still have enough power
and i can still lift it up on to my shoulders

but my bodys not me
it won’t hold my shape
you can’t even see my armour
but its shimmering like water
and its heavy like the ocean
and yeah it drags me down but
i still have enough power
and i can still lift it up on to my shoulders

when my mind is overwhelmed
when my body won’t move
you’ve been a shield over me
i want to be a shield over you
when my mind shuts down
in the most incredible pain
you’ve been a shield over me
i just need the strength to do the same

my bodys not me
it wont hold my shape
i know that im something other
my bodys not me
theres no fucking way this cage can last forever...